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[16 Mar 2006|10:28pm] |
so, ok, so much bad news.
my labtop broke and its not able to be fixed so i have to buy a new one. correction, my parents have to buy a new one and i have to wait a long itme for it...but solution: my boyfriend has given my his labtop for the meantime<3
tuesday night, tommy & liz took me to the hospital at around 10:30pm and mahdi and i didn't leave until 4:30am. it sucked. i was coughing so much i couldn't breathe. HARD coughing. like, so hard my whole entire body vibrated and i was spitting up saliva and shit. the emergency room doctor diagnosed me with bronchitis with wheezing. she also gave me vicodin and i was tweeking out the whole night. they put me on wierd air and all these masks and stuff. the whole hospital could hear my coughing and i could hear everyone talking about "wow my throat is starting to hurt"..."that poor girl"...."geeeeez". yeah it made me feel horrible and i cried a lot.
so i quit smoking...
and i now have vicodin, an inhaler, an antibiodic and some other pills.
IM NEVER TAKING THE VICODIN THOUGH. its freaky!!
----but i feel A LOT better now.
now i really need to thread my eyebrows.
...if anyone knows a really good eyebrow threader in los angeles PLEASE let me know. thanks.
:D
here are pics of my place (its a lot bigger than it looks, if it looks small):
*mahdi's camera died by the time i got to my bedroom and bathroom, but once we charge it i'll post those too..
i really miss home and i was supposed to go on thursday, however, for some reason, i can't leave this place.
♥ i love my boyfriend even though we fight about stupid things b/c he does some awesome stuff!
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[06 Mar 2006|04:52pm] |
♥ waking up with the one you love...
oh and this is mahdi, his friends, and my apartment!:
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[17 Feb 2006|07:39pm] |
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i don't wanna use this anymore. k, thanks bye.
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[12 Feb 2006|05:32pm] |
today is our 5 month anni, but it feels like a year, seriously.
school started. im taking two classes at pierce so in fall i'll be at CSUN. i still don't really know what i want to do but by the end of the summer i'll know for sure since i'll be done with gen ed and be forced to start my major.
school is good.
the boy is good.
family's good.
friends are missed.
and...im happy
♥ the end.
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[17 Jan 2006|03:34am] |
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thats it. im pretty much packed. just got a bunch of lose ends, plus i need to find a couple big boxes for my clothes. can't forget my ab lounge and my scrapbook stuff though. i also have to buy a very nice outfit for saturday night b/c mahdi is planning to take my parents along with his parents out to a nice dinner at spot or something. im so nervous. its like, the scariest but best feeling in the world. tonight he asked me "if i tell you something will you believe me?" and i said "...what do you wanna tell me?" and he goes "asheghetam" (bad spelling for "im in love with you") and then he went on about how everything he does with me is amazing..even when we just go to the movie theater together. and i was literally in shock. b/c he has always told me he loves me but it was just so sincere. besides that lovey dovey stuff, i went to ikea tonight with my parents. i went the other day with maria but we really didn't do much at all, lol. but tonight i bought pots/pans, utensils, sheet covers, a hella expensive but godly pillow, candles, etc. didn't end up buying my dining table or bed b/c ikea said we actually have to go to the ikea in burbank and purchase them there. its only like 15 minutes from my new place so im not tripping, i just hope they have it. now before i go down there, i need help with picking a bed...
what do you guys think?
 or 
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i'm sort of leaning more on the wooden one b/c it matches the rest of my furtiniture sort of and, i kind of think i'll get sick of the black iron, even though i've wanted that bed from ikea for awhile now. i already chose out my dining table and chairs and all that.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IM ALMOST DONE!
this week i've got to make an eyebrow appt., go to a doctors appt., return my santa cruz keys and sell a book. im really scared to like, go out with friends and stuff b/c i dont want this to feel like goodbye. all my friends are welcome to my place down there so i just dont want to think im never going to see anyone again. i dont know what im going to do without garik. he is the most amazing person in my life besides my family and mahdi and it just suckssss that im not gunna get to drive over that san mateo bridge anytime i want and see him. but i wanna make him proud by growing up and i cant wait to see him grow up bc he's going through some of his own life's next chapters. damn dude.
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye goodbye
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[03 Nov 2005|01:43am] |
my boyfriend is having a lot of problems in his life right now and im afraid he is falling out of us b/c of this and im just really sad and i know he loves me and i know i love him and i know everything will be okay but im just scared. i really love him...
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide
Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
..........................You and I collide
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[25 Oct 2005|01:10am] |
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So since friday i have been majorly studying and I'm very proud of myself. I shouldn't be too proud thought b/c the only reason im studying is to catch up! But i'm definitely trying my best to catch up and i really hope i'll get good fruits for this labor. Lately things have been kind of rocky with Mahdi and i b/c of this guy out here in santa cruz who I'm not even going to talk about. but yeeeeah. FRIDAY IM GOING DOWN THERRREEE! and he has no idea i'm coming on friday. He thinks I'm flying there on Saturday morning but nope, I'm going to suprise him at his work. I'm going to be so happy even though all friday and saturday night I'm just going to be sitting at his work doing homework. His work is a fun place to chill though and watch him. And every time he walks by he winks or kisses me or brings me more food or hooka or chai and i'm so in love with him so I can't wait just to watch him work. Thursday I'm getting my eyebrows done and I'm gunna go look for some nice clothes to wear to his work. I'm pretty much going alone now b/c garik and his sister can't go anymore :( but who knows, I might have some of my friends from down there come kick it with me.
So basically life is going well.
Oh and by the way in January I'm not living in Santa Cruz anymore b/c i hateeee it. I was up til 5:30am crying to my boyfriend, dad and mom about how much I hate it out here! sooo yeah.
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[19 Oct 2005|11:29pm] |
Life is shitty out here in Santa Cruz, but I love my friends and boyfriend. I don't really get to see my friends or boyfriend and I've been kicking back way too much in school so life is kind of up in the air for me these days. I have no plans, no major. No nothing really except for my friends and boyfriend..who aren't around me. I feel as though I have no direction. I have a midterm tomorrow which I've been studying for all day and yesterday but I'm still out of luck pretty much. So yeah, that's about it. I changed the layout of my journal because I thought it would give me some sort of change and happiness, but really it hasn't.
I hope life will get better and more interesting..and have more fucking motivation.
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[11 Jun 2005|06:25pm] |
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I'm lying in bed
There's thoughts in my head
I'm thinking bout you
Over and over and over and over again
What can I tell you, you got me so twisted
Tossing and turning
Over and over and over and over again
So I wrote a song tonight
You weren't begging me to write
Tell me is it cool tonight
To let you know whats on my mind
Boy, I'm digging on your energy
And I'm digging what you telling me
So I wrote this little melody
And dedicate it to my favorite lover
Rain and shine sleet and snow
Couldn't stop the way we flow
Welcome to my miracle
And I'm digging on your lyrical
Your melody is my remedy
Squeeze to my Hennessey
The one to call when I'm sipping for
With the candy coated Tennessee
Just make a wish.
And let's make it a fish with your boy with some heavenly bliss
Because your kisses on my lips, girl I'm ready to roll
With so vicious and bubblicious, the energy's throwed
Boy, I'm digging on your energy
And I'm digging what you telling me
So I wrote this little melody
And dedicate it to my favorite lover
Boy, you know that I dig you
I fell in love when I met you
I love the way you make me feel
Your energy is something real
Boy, I love the way
You make me feel
Is something bout you loving me
Can't do without your energy
Boy, I'm digging on your energy
And I'm digging what you telling me
So I wrote this little melody
And dedicate it to my favorite lover
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[08 Jun 2005|01:02am] |
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I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself
I've never been so wrong before
You made it impossible for me to ever love somebody else
And now I don't know what I left you for
See I thought that I could replace you
He can't love me the way you do
'Till now I never knew
Baby
I'm spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how I try to change my mind
What's the point? it's just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't want to live without you in my life
I'm spoiled
I tried to tell myself that I'd be
over you in a week or two
But baby that was 'bout a year ago
I've never seen the word love so personified
...as I do with you
And that is why I just can't let go
And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to
Believe there's room for someone else in my heart
There ain't no way I'm getting over you
I don't know what I've been trying to prove
I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you
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[22 Feb 2005|05:59pm] |
ATTENTION:
humanheadflow, starsatnoon and myflybear..identify yourselves.
i'm glad i got to meet you guys!
you are all really cool people and hopefully we shall see you again.
come visit us when you get the chance, you are always welcome here :)
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[15 Feb 2005|08:53pm] |
"one time, nigga, one time."
we've gotten written up twice already
and we had to go thru alcohol programing
but "its 2005, nobody givin a fuck!"
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[13 Feb 2005|11:19am] |
<33 thats all i can say.
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[01 Feb 2005|04:22pm] |
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love= black men singing slow r&b songs.
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[28 Jan 2005|07:21pm] |
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STOP THE WORLD. I WANT TO GET OFF.
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tired
chipper
